Lust

Oh, his fingers running down her skin
tracing each centimeter with his lips
tasting the sweetness in every inch
oh, such a tasty sin

The way she embraces him with her warm
as he traps her with his arms
they are falling for this lustfull charm
oh, they forgot they can't

oh, such steamy scene
such a lustful world
he is a sinful prince
and for her
oh, I'm such a dirty girl

Decieving Smile

You asked me for a kiss
as your piercing eyes searched for my lips
making my blood rush and my heart beat increase
but what if you are just trying to decieve?

how do I know its true?
how do I know its not another lie?
how do I know if you feel like I do?
how to forget about your once decieving smile?

Maybe

Maybe I’m too deep now
Maybe I have no more choice
Maybe my strength will never be found
forever annoyed by this breaking noise

Maybe I’ll be forever weak
Maybe I’ll stay like this
in a world where reality and fantasy do not meet
Maybe this hollowness will never cease

Yet I’ll try
I’ll try to survive
to look for that light
Oh, these cold nights

Yet I’ll try again
to become the strongest I can
because even in this darkness
I don’t want to let go of your hand

Maybe I’m really too weak
Maybe I can’t get any stronger
but I’m begging you pleasestay with me until I get this

Sorry

I have been a little down lately, I know
and I wish you’ll forgive me, my love
is not like I don’t want to be with you
it’s just that…am I enough?

This may be corny, I’m sure
but I just want to make you smile
I don’t know how much you can endure
can you be with me one more night?

I keep dragging you down
but without you I feel so lonely in this town
do you still want to run,
run away to a place that will never be found?

This may sound stupid, my dear
but I still have this lingering fear
that breaks what is so blissful and clear
do you see my silence tear?

However, I still want to be with you
I still want to be between your arms
to be the reason of the things you do
to protect you from any harm

Yet, I want to hold your hand
to be with you when you cry
to kiss you every single chance
to be the one that makes you smile

I have been a little down lately, I know
but wish you remember, my love
that I’m still happy thanks to you
because your smile alone is enough

Deadly Lullaby

In a time long, long ago—so long ago that many have forgotten—lived a happy town. People rejoiced in happiness and lived gratefully each day. Such a wonderful place.

However, I’m not going to tell you about its bliss or glory. About how humble they were or how they felt blessed
.
Oh no. I’m going to tell you the unknown story. Its fall. The story of how that little happy town became forgotten. The unknown story of that unknown little town.

It all happened that “normal” day. Maybe Fate was tire of seeing people happy. Maybe Fate finally got sick of their smiles. Or maybe, Fate finally carried out his twisted plan.
From one of the little houses, came a squeaky noises that bothered the entire family—soon it spread all across town. No one knew what it was, but they knew it came from the rat holes that invaded the house. They set on traps to kill these unwanted visitors. They used the classic mouse trap and some chemicals—incredible poisons they found in an unwanted temple—to catch them and kill them. It was a total success. It seemed that all those rats died upon the venom of the chemicals. But, oh boy, of course that was not the end of it—Fate loves to play.

After some days of peace and joy, the horror attacked that little town once more. The squeaky noises that were once heard, invaded each house again. However, this time was stronger, more horrifying. They put on traps and spread out chemicals and noticed that it did nothing but increase the noises and the mess that were created at night.

-It can’t be rats- A man in the crowd yelled out during the meeting the town made.

-We should check what are enemy are before attacking.- Another suggested.

The entire town decided that was the best way to go.

They held on to their improvised weapons as they walked toward the biggest house of the entire town, where the noises were heard the most. The mayor of the town knocked on its huge wooden door, but no one replied. The mayor waited and then knocked again.

-No one is there.- A husky voice suddenly called out from the crowd. Everyone turned to see an old winkled woman. Her eyes were filled with hatred and her skinny self was shaking with agony. –That family disappeared already- She said with pain. No one believed her. –The chemicals you used were treasures of our ancestors to keep peace with this hollow world’s pests. You used them, now you have no protection. You cursed yourself.-

Everyone stared in disbelief. What was this old lady saying? Where did she come from?

-Stop saying nonsense!-The mayor yelled.

-Well, you’ll soon believe me and you’ll soon be begging for my help- The old woman replied and in a zaash she disappeared.

Everyone began to look around and to each other looking for answer to what just happened.

-That’s the old woman that lives outside town.- A little boy remembered.
-No matter who she is, is still nonsense what she was saying.- The mayor replied and with a kick he opened the wooden door.

The house was indeed empty. Everyone stood there in shock, as the words of the old lady echoed the empty house.

-They must be inside.- The sheriff said with encouragement.

A small crowd separated from the original one and entered the big house with small and light steps. They turned to the right, and the house was empty—a total mess, but empty. They headed to the left, but it was the same situation. Fearing what the old lady had said, they walked with shivering legs toward the second floor. All of the sudden, those familiar noises began to sound again. They stopped. Stared at each other; none of them were brave enough to accept they were afraid, so they were looking for a total coward between them. However, all of them were too proud to accept they were scared.

After a moment of no movement, they turned to the right and began to walk with even smaller steps. As they got nearer to the first room, the annoying noises grew. They stopped for a while, hesitating…now, looking for the bravest one among them all. The sheriff took a deep breath and put his hand in the handle. The door opened slowly, showing an imaged that made them wished it never opened.

From that wooden door, the darkness emerged. The sounds were now like pounding hammers in everyone’s head. No one dare to enter, no one dare to move. All of the sudden, two little red light balls surfaced in the dark room. They glittered away with evilness.

-What…- One of the men tried to speak. The words were struggling in his throat. A second later, the entire room was covered with red light balls. The sheriff in an accidental move taken because of fear, stretched out his hand and making his flash light illuminate the entire room.

It WAS rats after all. They were somehow deformed. Their skin seemed to be so much darker and their eyes now shone like blood. Their teeth were bigger and their entire body seemed as if they were ready to explode. Part of their flesh and bones were exposed, creating an intoxicating smell—or was it the devoured dead bodies of the former owners? Even with all of these, they were indeed rats.

They froze in horror. Was it true the gruesome scene they were watching? In that exact moment, the old lady’s voice began to ring in their minds. A cursed. It kept repeating. A curse.
No one outside knew what was going on, until a loud scream astonished everyone. In the confusion, they managed to see one of the guys that had entered coming out with his shirt all splattered with blood.

-The…the…rats…-He tried to say as he crawled out to the sun light.

What happened next was the most fun for Fate. The entire town was being attacked. The little rats that once wanted only cheese and leftovers, were craving for human flesh and had a thirst for human blood as they turned each time bigger, each time more gruesome.

-Help!- A voice called out with desperation from the outside yard. The man stopped roughly as he tried to catch his breath back. The wooden house in front of him seemed so old as if it had millions of years. It looked as if it was going to fall down at any moment. The man wanted to call out again, but his throat had given up upon him and he was afraid to knock.

When he tried to open his mouth again, the door opened slowly, giving away it was old; the old woman that was once in front of the big house appeared.

-What is it that you want?- The old lady was exhausted.

-You were right.- the man admitted-We need your help!-

The old lady grinned. –oh young man.- She began to say with all the patience of the world now, still smiling. -I won’t be of any help. Is too late now.- She added.

-But there must be something!- The man cried out.-We will pay any cost!

The old lady noticed how desperate the man was, and that blissful yet twisted smile draw itself in her face again. –Well, well. I think I have something that might help you.- The woman turned around and disappeared in the darkness of her house. The man waited patiently in the deserted yard.

Minutes later, the old lady came out with a little girl-She’s Aliza.- The man’s eyes were fixed on the girl. Her long dark hair flowed like the water of a dark damp into her waist and her dark eyes were as big as the moon. –She will help you.- The old lady assured.

The man stared in disbelief. There was no way a little girl that looked of almost 10 could do any good in a time of massacre. –You are not going to trust me again?- The old lady threaten. The girl stayed quite.

The man shook his head and grabbed the little girl’s hand in desperation and ran away. As they both began to fade in the road toward the town the old lady yelled-Now she is yours! Remember to pay her back well!- But the warning was never heard.

At the entrance of the now doomed little town, appeared a sweaty and bloody man holding the hand of a little girl wearing a beautiful black dress.

-Now..now…what?- The man asked to himself as the screams grew louder from his beloved town.

The little girl saw the shadows; the rats moving, hunting people. She smiled to herself as she let go of the man’s hand, and walked toward the town with no fear at all.

She walked ‘til she was further enough, and she opened her little mouth and began to move her little lips. The most angelical voice began to sing and hum a song that was filled with hope. She turned away when she noticed she had finally caught the attentions of the little creatures that looked like rats. She turned away and began to skip her way toward the nearest river. She skipped and skipped and skipped as she continued emitting that beautiful song, and the rats followed her all the way.

Finally, in front of the river she jumped to one of the wet rocks and turned away to watch how the rats that followed her drawn in the clear river.

The work was done, and the girl smiled with satisfaction. The little girl skipped back to the town, with her prized already in mind.

-Oh my dear!- The mayor cried with joy in the entrance of the town. –You saved us all!- The little girl stayed quiet, waiting anxiously for her reward. The bunch of adults that were looking down at her were perplexed when they noticed she wanted something in return.

-Oh little girl, we have nothing to give you.- The mayor lied. –All our goods have been turned to trash because of those hideous creatures.- The little girl knew they were lying. -How about this? In reward for helping us all, you can come and play whenever you want!- The mayor’s wife suggested. The girl’s eyes were filled with sadness. She wanted a prize. She didn’t want a place to play. She wanted something she could play with alone. She didn’t want company, not at all.

-What are you staring?- One man of the crowd grumped. We have to work now, go back to where you came from. Play time will be another day. – And they all turned away, leaving the little girl alone.

The little girl grinned again, but this time her eyes were mad. She was gone by night, but the next day she returned for she was granted the liberty to play. She went to the park were all the other little boys and girls where and she sat in a lonely spot. They played and played but none of them talked to her—not that she wished for someone to talk to her. She had returned to town for her prize.

After a moment of being silent, the little girl opened her little mouth again and the song began to ring loud throughout the town once more. However, this time a bunch of diabolic rats didn’t follow her. This time, the little kids that were in the playground dropped their toys and walked back home with their eyes blank and their smiles wiped away. The little girl smiled again.

That night of that fateful day, the voice of the little girl sounded again in a low volume in each house. The first to wake up were the little kids. Their eyes were popping out, their skin were turning gray, and their smiles were now complete wiped away. They stood up from their cozy bed and stumbled their way outside. They were no longer conscious, they were no longer kids.

The kids that once wanted only sweets and wished for toys to play with now craved for human flesh and had a thirst for human blood. The ones that woke up saw their kids’ dead eyes before they were devoured. The ones that didn’t woke up, never got to… and this deadly scene in Fate’s favorite game was accompanied with the little girl’s song sounding loud through the town from the dark skies. The next day, the town was deserted. The kids were gone. The adults were nothing but bones. The entire town was empty. The houses, the restaurants, the school, the playground…everything; now the little girl got her prize: Something she can play with—in—all by herself.

Strength

So I hold on to this
For this gave me strength
Saving me from the blizzard mist
You became my only friend

So I grab tightly your hand
Planning on never letting go
Even after the last grains of sand
With strength I’ll stand

However, you became my only strength
The only force inside my soul
The only one that understands
That’s why I’m not letting you go.

But I fear I’m depending too much on you
I’m afraid I might tire you out
For you are the reason of everything I do
I’m afraid of you leaving me now

So I’ll try to fight against fate
and put effort in everything I do
and hope strength I can gain
so I can stand up for me and you

Prank Call

I drifted through the days
Unconscious of how I was falling
Convinced there were no Fairy Tales
That I knew all about loving.

I lived on thinking I had it all
That all I needed was in my hand
But then, entered a prank call
I got lost in an unknown wonderland.

The caller was the little cupid
Seemed he finally got bored and shot me
Making me a little dumb and very stupid
I’m falling, can’t you see?

I have opened my eyes, dear
Something unknown to me
During all these years
It was you, how could it be?

You swept me off my feet
Showing me something I hadn’t seen
Craving your lips
Tasting your skin

So, with just your smile
And a thin arrow of cupid
I had come to realized
That love makes you stupid

So, with just your smile
And fate’s prank call
I had come to realized
That in reality, I had nothing at all.

I drift through my days
Realizing nothing is ever enough
Convinced that there are crappy fairy tales
That I know nothing about love

Words

These words have their own life
They flow with their own vibe
Is not about the rhythm or the style
Is about the silent tears the writer cries

These words express pain
The joy of a mindless game
They describe what’s lame
Testimonies of the mistakes I made

These words go beyond my voice
Since everything is posted in every letter
My way of making an impact, causing noise

These words embrace my feelings
Spreading myself in each line
Knowing the true me as you keep reading
The twisted thoughts I have inside

So don’t just think of them as ink, letters or lines
They are more than just words
They are the hollow voices of my mind
Story teller of my life

Will You?

Even if this fragil heart of mine turns to dust
even if every single hope is lost
I want you to know
that nothing will ever get between us.

But will you still be there every single night
killing all these deadly fears of mine?
Will you still be my ever lasting guiding light
even when everything is dark, even when I'm out of sight?

How I wish for you to know how I am inside
How part of me slowly dies
How I wish to hold you every single night
and fall asleep under the shine of your eyes.

So tell me now my dear
Would you hold my wounded heart
and keep me from falling apart?So tell me now honey
would you save me from the dark
and heal all my bloody scars?

How I wish for you to know
How my heart's beating is getting slow
How I wish to be able to show
that without you I am just a hollow soul.

So will you still look at me with those dearing eyes
breaking me free from all these painful lies
Will you still hold me with your warmth smile
even if it's really forever, even after so many time?

Would You?

Would you let me fall
if I forget how to lie?
would you let me crawl
if I can't fake a smile?
would you seal me between walls
if the fake me suddenly dies?

I have lived my entire life pretending
believing that that's how I am going to get my happy ending
But now I'm lost and I have no idea where this is leading
I have lost myself and I have no idea of what's love meaning.

My face hurts for pretending that coward smile
My heart breaks for telling all those lies
My soul shatters with all my lost fights
and after all, I'm still alone tonight
even with you by my side
even with you holding me tight

The emptiness over takes me even when you are here
since you have no idea of who I really am, my dear
and I have pretend so much that I can't no longer stop
I have been lying for all these years
that losing you for the real me, now I fear.

So tell me now honey,
Would you let me fall
if I stop saying yes to what you say?
Would you let me crawl
if everything begins to change during these days?
would you let me die between walls
if I let the fake me fade away?

Autobiography

You smile to the crowd
you cry to yourself
you say you are okay out loud
when you just feel like an empty shelf

You hide yourself in the dark
you break your own heart
it seems like you were lost from the start
tell me,
why do you try to be someone else so hard?

You say it's okay
with that smile so weak so fake
you say it's alright
why do you keep up with these lies?

You keep on pretending you are fine
yet you keep crying at night
you keep on going around with that fake smile
yet you say everything is alright

You go around without seeing what's wrong
and still you try to pretend to be strong
you have been scared for so long
that now you are just all alone

No matter what you say
you will always be a coward as you are today
since you can't even try to stop this pitiful fate
No matter how it is
it seems like you keep fading away
you keep being so fake so lame
so lame that you can't even write this poem in first person
with your own name

Sobre el amor

¿Que es amor? tu me preguntas
y me exiges la repuesta
que defina tal concepto
no es tan fácil empresa.

Por amor algunos matan
y muchos mas que se mueren
por amor hay quienes viven
y quienes vivir no pueden.

Por amor se hacen guerras
que terminan en matanza
y también muchas peleas
que terminan en la cama.

Por amor y por pendejos
cometemos mil errores
y por ese mismo amor
suplicamos cien perdones.

¿Pero que chingaos es ese amor
que todo mundo proclama?
Por el que tantos se mueren
por el cual tantos se matan.

Caricias dirán algunos
besitos me dirán otros
corazones, flores, dulces...
regalitos otro poco.

"el amor es sentimiento"
me gritará algún idiota
"es pasión del corazón"
me cantará alguna otra.

Total que...

cada quien se lo pinta
como mejor le parece.
a como sabe mas rico
y cuanto mas le apetece.

¡pero amor no es conveniencia!
ni los regalos, ni flores
¡ni siquiera cojer mucho!
mucho menos las pasiones.

Amor no son las canciones
con letras cursis y tontas.
ni pensar que sea matanzas
o tragedias "amorosas".

El amor es mas que el tacto.
el gusto o hasta el olfato
mucho mas que las canciones
mucho mas que los regalos.

Es el compromiso diario
es dar todo aunque te duela
no solo una pinche cena
a la luz de unas velas.

No es nomas sentir bonito
y escuchar las campanitas
cuando das tu primer beso
de piquito o de lenguita.

Es más que estas rimas tontas
sobrepasa las palabras
Y solo se le conoce
en la vida cotidiana.

Cuando le pierdes el asco
a tu pareja amada
que hasta le aguantas los pedos
y las camisas sudadas.

Cuando ya no sientes lindo
y aun así sabes que le amas
porque al no tenerle cerca
luego luego se le extraña.

O amanecer a lado
de aquella que tanto amas
aunque sabes que con el tiempo
ya no harán cochinadas.

Pues se habrán hecho viejos
los cuerpos que su alma guardan
Pero el lazo que les une
no se envejece con nada.

Y teniendo esto cuenta...

Concluyo que yo te amo
mas allá de cualquier verso
y a pesar de tantos años

con todo y tus cualidades
y a pesar de tus defectos
aguantando tus corajes
y saboreando tus besos.

Queriéndote mucho, mucho,
mas de lo que un día pensé
con conciencia del gran riesgo
que implica entregar tu ser.

Y no me arrepiento en nada
de lo que hice o nunca fue
pues cada segundo vale
por cuanto te hace crecer.

Y contigo crezco mucho
y me lleno de alegría
para se mejor persona
y amarte cada día.

Poet

She stays up at night
trying to arrange the words in her mind
trying to express what she feels with a rhyme.

she writes over and over again
about a broken heart, a lonely soul and a lost friend
she keeps writing without a name
about a cruel lie, a hollow dream and a loveless game

she doesn't struggle through the words
although she's deeply hurt
she writes about the good and the dirt
breaking all her protective walls

She can't feel the time passing by
she remembers every lover's smile
every judging eye
and all those senseless lies

She found a way to stop the tears she cried
she found a way to end those sleepless nights
she found a way to say what's in her mind
she found a way to block her desire to die

The pain drains with each line
the words show whats real
she no longer has to hide behind a smile
she's finally saying what she feels

She writes about the ones she loves
about a friend who showed her how to be strong
about a dear one who had been with her all along
about the one who showed her the real meaning of love

She writes about the ones that doesn't care
about the ones that are always there
about the nightmares and her biggest fears
about everything, clear or unclear

She writes her heart, mind and soul out
and this might be the only thing that makes her proud
and this might be the only thing that makes her stand out
and today, poem and myself is what I write about

Our Broken Song

The darkness taking over my body
my mind still numbed after the lame ending of our love story
my soul is breaking for losing all it's glory
a broken smile appears after you said your hollow sorry

The blood pouring down the wound of my heart
it's making the surroundings turn blurry and dark
The uneven breathing of my lungs
fails with the background melody of our song
and the part of me that slowly dies
keeps repeating with your cold voice every single lie.

Oh, I blame myself for falling into your web
I was just so wrong in every single step
now an empty shelf and a bleeding heart are the only things left
Heh, I was doomed since the day we met.

Don't worry, I won't ask you if it was real
My hopes have already fade away
I won't ask you how did you feel
because I know that lies were everything you said
and knowing more would just make me ill.

Oh, I blame myself for not being strong
For everything I did was wrong
now I'm just playing along
since I'm just a broken girl humming the same stupid love song

How Come

I’m just a little girl
amazed by everything
who goes with the flow of the world
filled with pain and egoism

I’m just another forgotten princess, dear
with a broken fairy tale
living her biggest fear
since everything in my life failed.

That's why I want to know, my friend
why are you here with me?
that's something I can’t understand
how could it be?

how could it be that you are here
after all these twisted years
how come you stayed with me
through darkness and fears

how could it be that you stayed
after everything that happened
how come you don't mind what they said
I just hope this won’t end

So how come you help me, this broken girl
how come you go through everything
even against the world
breaking all my pain and egoism

Fakeness

Here we are
in a empty room
all these shiny stars...
but why does it feel so doomed?

Maybe is the fakeness of your smile
which is bringing us down
maybe is the thorn in each lie
which is causing this annoying sound
Or just maybe because tonight
you burried the real you underground

the wind gets heavier with every word you say
our temper gets higher with each victim role you play
our hopes die with every smile you fake
oh, when did you go away? when did you fade away?

So here we are
ready for the second round
as our hearts break apart
each of us fall heavily into the ground

Still, you stand there just fine
have you gone blind?
can't you see your are living such a awful lie?
in which plastic is real
and nobody cares about how you feel

Are you sure you want it this way?
forgetting about what you have for plastic?
so you are letting the real you fade away
just because you want to look fantastic?

The nights get colder as you turn away
our friendship shattered with every mistake we made
our hearts fall with each step you take
oh, when did my friend disappear? when did you take her away?

Fade

Can you hear the words I'm saying?
can you listen to the curses I'm yelling?
have you forgotten that I'm still waiting?
Oh dear, when did this begin fading?

Your smile is fading away with time
and I am once alone tonight
trying to fool my lonely mind
trying to pretend that everyhting is fine

but tell me, when did I begin wandering alone?
when did it all go wrong?
how did we get into this storm?